On good exploit!

I have had a sad bankroll of a while now... on every poker account. Nothing has been working. Well it has been small winnings which I have lost when I have bought in for the next tourney. It has been like a straight line , if it hasn't gone down. Sad and boring! One thing is for sure, patience pays! Yesterday I had 39 cent on one of the accounts, and I putted 30 cent on a little tourney. I won it and cashed around $7... I played another tourney and lost that pretty fast. After that my bankroll had $5.70... it is not a bankroll in my opinion. I was thinking what would I do with those money. Sure I could continue playing sng and tourneys for cents. But I thought somehow, win or lose and because of that I set the alarm right in the middle of the night. I went up and regged for a tourney with $5 buy in. That left me with 20 cent on my account.. wee...

I was trying to use my patience as well as my skill... and when the bubble arrived I was very short. Right before money I was in bottom 5... and when I was in the botton 2 I decided to push my stack into the middle of the table.... no one wanted to call that one, I was sure I would lose and because of that I was happy when everyone folded. That putted me up to bottom 6, from that position I was climbing up. There were 20 payouts!

Well, when the last guy smashed to the was I was doubling up and doubling up and I was almost sure I would just get my buy in back and little more. I was climbing up to top 10, and once I was there I was sure I was going to get some bigger money. Patience, patience was the word spinning around in my head... Players were falling out one by one and suddenly it was the final table. The players continues to fall out... and I ended up in top 3. I don't know what or why I did as I did in my last hand. I was raising and this guy reraised me and I somehow thought he was protecting his blind. Well, he didn't protect it, he had AA.. and that made my nose flat... LMAO... I was so cold with that hand. I had no % at all.... doh!!! Oh well... I went from 20 cent to 100.20 dollar.. That is good! :o)

No jobinterview

Damit, I had set my alarm at 8 AM this morning, because I was supposed to go in to the city right after 9 AM. I got me a little surprise this morning of a text message. It was saying, sorry can't make it to 10. Ok, not a big deal. I can go back to sleep. The text messages was from the company where I have looking for work. She was calling me back little later and she asked if it was ok at Monday around same time. Sure, it was ok for me.... we'll see on Monday.

I would be happy if I could get this job. Especially when I am in this situations as I am. It is like a treadmill. It is soo boring!

I guess it is matter of time before I find something to do, but until then... grrr...

When it comes to poker, I can't directly say that I have been focused enough to play good. If I had been focused and not messed around as I have done today I might had won some money. You shouldn't play when you are off the mood. One annoying thing has been my cat.... omg, she has constantly tried to chew on the cables to the computer. She wouldn't stop. I didn't know what to. Tomorrow I am going to the store to buy a bottle for water, that I can spray on her when she goes there. She needs to learn, she is soon a big cat and it is not cute anymore.

I hope I can win a little on poker tomorrow instead. Heh...

No poker!

Oh my God! I haven't been able to play poker yet. I have been so busy today. Well, first the day started with a migraine and I went back to bed, but after that... I have done a lot. I have been calling here and there for stuff. I am good! :o)

The biggest surprise is that I haven't started the tv yet. eek... The computer is on because I left it on since yesterday. Not healthy for the computer thou... I would like to have a new computer, but I guess I have to wait to next year before I can buy one.

By the way, I was applying for a work today. Normally I send email to companies for that, but today I actually called on company. I am going to meet a lady tomorrow at 10 AM... I hope can get the job. Well, we have to see. She has probably lot of people who want the job. It is not the best job, but I would like to have it. :o)

Somehow I can't wait until I have a job, but I am not sure I have energy enough to work. If I feel my energy is about running out, than I will run to the doctor. I know I have some stressproblem... I know that it is important for me to get to bed and sleep my hours to be able to live as a normal person.

Oh well, I will run to the store now and shop a little. After that I am going to play a little poker. :)

Exam!

I was talking to the university today and I can have my exam done to next summer, in the beginning of June. It was not an option to make the exam before and have it done in the beginning of next year.....


Whoasa!!! I was almost accidently deleting this post. :o( I needed to close some windows and suddenly I had closed this post to. Lucky there is a draft option in this blogsystem which has automatically saved my post. :)

Yes, I was talking to the university... they told me to reg my exam on friday and that I could start reading some book to get me a background. For the others I should wait till I get a supervisor... My last course is splitted in two, one part is my exam and the other is just a course. That course I could finish before christmas, well that is if my assignment is going to be passed. Somehow I am a bit motivated for this and the only problem is to get it all to progress. In the thought it is all good...

I was thinking about starting either next week on Monday or this weekend. Just now I need to have "a few days off". lol

After this weekend I will study first and play poker after. We'll see how it works. In worse case I will carry my computer to my Mom. She will gladly take care of the computer. :oP

Oh well.. I am going to play some poker now.... best of luck to me. I am not sure if I should play, I feel a bit unlucky today. At least in those game I have already been playing. Nothing tells me to fold. Why??? doh!!

Take care people!

3rd place!

Wee hooo... I was killing some time earlier this evening and regged me for a $100 guaranteed tourney. My thoughts about the tourney wasn't very high to begin with. I was sure I was going to fall out somewhere before the moneyspot. Well, I guess it was my lucky day because I ended up on 3rd place.

Except for play poker, I was doing some errands today. Went to the bank and talked loan... jaikes. I don't like things like that, but I had to. After my little trip in the city I went to Mom's house for dinner. I was there a little and talked about my studies... I accidently mentioned that I was going to leave my lap at her place while I am studying. Mom was fast and said, I can take it today already! Huh... Nooooway!.. Not today I said... when I am starting with my exam. Not now! LOL.. Crazy! I was thinking: take it easy! heh... I need to talk to the university once again to get me regged on the course etc. No panic yet! I don't even know if I can do the exam before new year. But I pray that I can go up with the report in the beginning of next year.

I guess I have set the alarm for tomorrow to be able to get up in time.

Not by plan!

The day didn't go as I wanted. I had some bad headache and it wouldn't let go. Sad!!! I manage to call the university for the studies. I got my instructions for the course... I just need to reregister me for the course and tomorrow I can start my studies again. Week 51 I need to visit the university and participate in some seminars... Hopefully I can be done with half of the course in the end of this year.

I am not sure how it will work with my exam.... I need to talk to the responsible teacher for that subject. I know, it isn't teacher, it is lecture or something. Don't know. The positive thing is that I am on my way. Now I just need to take my thumb out of my ass and do this. I am going to dedicate my exam to my family...

... and suddenly I just came up with the idea of my subject for my exam. Great... weeee!!!!

Oh well!

I had some other plans that I had to put aside because my head was killing me. I wish I can do it tomorrow. My day for tomorrow is full.. we'll see.


Now I think I will date the sandman for a couple of hours.

Todays schedule

I have done a little schedule for today!

1. Make some important phone calls.
2. Make a little calc about my money situation. (make a budget, pay some bills)
3. Book the Laundry room.
4. Make a little visit at my Mom's (maybe)
5. Do some vacuum cleaning.
6. Go to bed!

I am seriously thinking about putting some limit on my computer using. I just don't know how it should work when my charachter sucks. lol... I should have computer work, that would be the best.

The only way I would be able to hold my limit is to leave my computer at my Mom's house. Jaikes! When I am going to take care about my studies I am going to have another computer and I will remove the ethernet card. LMAO.... Than I can't use Internet and it wouldn't be fun to over use the computer. I can still get online when I am at my Mother's house, and I can allow my self to use the computer during weekends.

With this solution I can maybe pull my life together much faster. I have to admit I am addicted to Internet. lol

Well, it is a big step, I need to think about it. lol

No job yet!

I have had a few meetings with my career coach. She have given me some inpiration by only talking. There has been no pushing around and me like. She is a wonderful person and very easy to talk with. She has given me some tasks to do, and that is to find out who I am and what I want. I haven gone through all the papers yet, but I have actually called a few companies and asked if they needed someone or had a work for me. Those I have contacted didn't have anything sadly. But, I got an e-mail from one of the persons I spoke to, and I am going to write her a personal letter about what I have done the last few years and stuff. The person said if I finished my education I would probably get a job.... that is very motivating. Because of that I phoned the university and asked about my old courses and if I could join to end it this year. It is not possible to end everything this year, but probably 2 of the courses. There is only one assignment I need to do in one of the courses, and the other one is more tough. The third one is my exam. Yaikes! I am motivated, I just think it is a big work and I don't know where to start. I would like to have someone who could have the control for me and help me pull it together even if I do the mainwork, or more correct all the work. I don't know yet if I can make this exam on my own yet. If I can, I could probably have it done by the 5th week next year. wee... That would be great.

I am going to have so much to tell my coach when I meet her next time. She is going to be so surprised I guess. :o)

On the poker front! Hmm.. dry desert. Few small ups but mostly down.. but that is the way it goes. I am praying for a little win soon. :)

Cat and a UK trip.

I have been busy since last time. Busy and busy, depends how you look at it. Heh... around the 16th of september a new member moved in to my appartment. A cutie! She is just lovely. When she arriveds she was a bit scared, but not she isn't. She is almost around me the whole time. Of all cats I have had during my time in life this one is the craziest in the end. She is hanging in curtains, climbing up to the curtain rod. But she is so sweet, I can live with this a while. Soon she is a bit older and will calm down.... I hope! Otherwise I guess I need to get another cat. I had another cat long time ago, he was almost as crazy as this girl... but he was calming down when I took another cat.

This cat thing was not a thinking through... it was a spontaneous thing. I had been thinking about getting a cat, but not this month, in the future. It was a bit of bad timing since I was going to UK the week after.

23 of september I sat on the flight to Stockholms, was staying at a hotel in Nyköping. 24th of September I was flying over to UK and to Birmingham airport. Before the trip I got an offer from a friend to stay at their place. I took this opportunity... I was staying at theirs from 24th to 25th of september. This family lived about an hours driving from Birmingham airport in a small town. It was a beatyful town... just sad that I didn't take any pictures of this trip. grr...

25th we was driving over to Stoke on Trent. We checked in on a hotel for the weekend. After we checked in we went down to the bar to join in with the other people who were on this trip as well. We sat down and talked efter if I was listening more. It was so much impressions to take in. I just enjoyed to listen to everyone who were talking. I have to admit that I didn't feel like talking because of my poor english. When writing I have a dictionary in the near and can check for word. That is nothing I can do when I am talking. I prefered to listen. heh.. anyway, we went down to the casino, since it was a joining from a poker community. On friday was my first live game ever. I didn't know what I was doing at all. I had not control over the chip stack... I was out pretty fast. It was an experience thou...

On saturday 26th we had dinner at a resturant. It was a typical sunday family dinner as I have understand. It was yummy yummy meal. After the dinner it was time for the casino again. This time I took revenge. I ended up at 11th. I was a bit unlucky in last hand. Shit happens obviously both online and live. It was a good place... it was my 2nd ever live game when it comes to poker. I think I did a great job.

27th, we checked out and I took the flight home to Sweden. I couldn't directly go home, I slept at jumbo hostel. Whoa I say! It was nice, cheap and simple. I can recommand it to others.

So, I just wish I could find money somewhere to next event. Anyone who wants to donate? ;o)
I really want to go back some day! I loved the country, I have been reading a little... I could def move there. But I need a work... I have been looking around a little on Internet. If I am going there I need to have a little capital. I am not sure where I can get that capital from. I need at least 20 000 SEK.

When I was at cyprus I was homesick after 2 days, this time I really wanted to stay. Funny! I really hope I can go back to UK some day in the near, next year maybe.

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This weekend, I have add some new info on my webpage!

www.fritzy.se

Couldn't let it go!

I have been thinking about my website the whole weekend, and thinking about what more to put in. There are lots I want to put in, but I have to take one step at the time. Today I put out a new poker room. A nice poker room.... Check it out!

www.fritzy.se

More to come!

Bubble bobble!

Ughabugha!

For awhile ago it said cha ching in one of my bankrolls, in the very same bankroll has it been dry desert too for a while. I couldn't understand what was going on, what ever I did I lost. God damit, I was almost thinking, this stupid software is rigged. I know better of course but when you are on tilt.. no, that is wrong word... sad for all the lost. Maybe sad it wrong word too... disappointed because you think you made it all good and probably you played the right way but it didn't hold up.

Normally I don't use to do tourney marathon's .. I mean play more than 3 tourneys per day. Today, I made a marathon. My brain is totally finish right now and it is 7.30 AM and I haven't slept yet. It is a bit crazy I agree. Anyway, I had a feeling that one of may last 3 tourneys would give me money, I went for 1000 grtd ... Normally I don't use to play on that level because I am.... hmm... greedy maybe. Maybe there is another more and better fitting word, but that was the only one I could remember without looking i the dictionary. I use to keep me to cheaper tourneys.

The last tourney came to be my winning tourney. I thought I would go crazy in this tourney. It is weird that I have such luck as I have. Yeah, actually I say luck or very good timing with every thing. Maybe a few moves were on skill and maybe the thinking too.. I don't know. I was shortstacked all the way to the final table, I was all in many times before the final table. Well, I had no choice, either they put me on all in or I had to go all in to get my stack up. It felt pretty hopeless just before the money spot... but I manage to survive that. It was 20 pay outs... I was playing on my patience most of the times, I was hoping and praying all the way up to the final table. Just before final table my stack was less then BB which was 1200 chip at the time. What to do? Just close eyes and pray for the best.. woohoo.. of course my 2 hit, had 24...

It was almost like that the whole bubble... and to the final table. Some of the players kept pushing extra just because they didn't want a call from me. At same time I didn't have cards to call with, it was more or less autofold. I should have gone for the luck little more on the final table instead of counting the money I could get. I was hot.... I could see flush, str, house folded all after eachother. grr... My common sense told me to foooold! I fold! I guess next time if I am trying the same game, I will be busted out immediately.

It was a great lucky game and I am proud to say it was of pure luck that I came to final table. weehoo... I didn't won but that doesn't matter. I got my bankroll up and more than I started with today.... it was a win situation for me today.

Now I need to sleep a little! This is not good...
but but... I had the feeling and it was a good one in the end.

Nighty! over and out!


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What's wrong?

I don't know what's wrong with me! I have been soooo tired. I sleep for a couple of hours is a for awhile and then I need to get back to bed because I can't manage to stay awake. This is silly! I slept almost the whole day yesterday, was up just a little while in between, but most part slept. Not good at all.

I don't know why it is like this.... it was working so well untill I caught some kind of flu earlier, in july. Now it is worse than ever. I just feel very very tired and have a hard time to keep my eyes up...or more correct my body awake. I should maybe make a little visit to the doctor... hmm...

Anyway... I have played a little poker. Not winning very much but kept me around +-0... for a change I have playes cash games.... hmm... I have played tourneys too. Cashed a litte... it is no big deal, nothing to bragg about. lol...

I was thinking about putting some new articles on my webpage, sadly I didn't have my energy to do it... I can do it another time. There is no hurry! It is a long project. Normally I would sit day and night before I get my webpage 100% done.. but this time, I will take little now and then.

Ok, it is daylight outside and I will take a little nap. I have been up for a couple of hours already!

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Tired today!

Since I am such irresponsible person I sat up the whole night yesterday. I think I was in bed by 7 AM.. weehooo, very very smart not. That is way I am going to do my very best to change that and hit the bed in time today.

I have had lazy feelings today, unfocused and not concentrated. Not fun since I was hoping to play some tourneys with some "good" winnings. I have been close to few final tables... annoying enough I got donked out... sad! There were a guy who had 2 6 of spades and decided it was a good hand to call my raise on 5X bb with. Not only I was raising pre-flop I shoved all in or flop since I hit my ace there. He had absolutely nothing to do there... there were no connection for a straght or a flush... some how he decided that a call would be good with his hand. Well, do I need to say it? Yeah, he hit flush on river. ffs. I just had to say something before I left the table. I could only laught over his stupid game. I said, good luck Gambler.. obviosly he didn't like that..... he said, I didn't mean to call that. pfft... right... I made a nice note on him, I will remember to next time. hehe...

Just before I started to write this blog I came to money in two tourneys. It didn't give much, it was very very small tourneys. It just doubled up my poor bankroll on that site and it is good enough.

Between my games I have done my very best of staying awake. That is why I was trying to entertain me self with some webdesign.. was trying to find an layout I like with readable text possibility. Sadly, I couldn't find any one. Well, I found a site which were trying to give me virus! That was not nice... I hurry to close everything down and run all I could run to stop this infection. On the other hand, it could have been a joke because my antivirus didn't find any.

I got scared and run of like a chicken or a rabbit.

Well, I am going to hit the bed now! Maybe I can turn my routins to normal. :o)

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Poor bankroll

For awhile now I have been playing with a poor bankroll, because of personal reasons and because it has been a dry period since june, when I had a top. For some weeks ago I signed up for a new poker room and I deposited a little. It felt like a shit room after a while and I deeply regretted my little deposit. I thought I could have done better for the money. Maybe put them on another better site. Don't know... I was so mad and so unlucky. I thought I would go crazy actually. Just the other day, saturday morning I thought shit this room. I was irreponsible and put my money on a bigger toureny, which I should have done in normal case. If I should have gone with a proper bankroll management I should not have registered for this tourney. Screw it, was my thought. Woohoo.. I came 4th. I doubled up my bankroll in that tourney, more than doubled up. Now, I will continue to play within my bankroll and not do to much of foolish things.

I haven't only playing poker, I have working on my website, and I am on my way. Hopefully I can see my self as done. Still I need to put some more things there. I am not that happy over the design, or layout, I need to work on that part or look for another layout....

www.fritzy.se

Rainy day!

What a surprise when I woke up. It was pooring rain! It couldn't help, I needed to go in to the city to meet up my friends as I had promissed. It was just for me to jump on the bike and smile. Well. the meeting was great. The Girls drove me home to my parents after the meeting and I was at my mother house for a while. The thought was that my brother would drove me home. He was lucky, he didn't need to drive me all the way home. The rain had stop and I could take my bike from the city when it was time.

When I came home, I was playing a little poker. I can't say that I had a great day, I couldn't feel the float at all. Because I was tired I felt it was better if I didn't play anything. I went for a few tourneys and freerolls anyway. I cashed i one of the tourenys, but I went back on the buy in sadly.

I have working a little om my webpage... soon... is there enough info.

www.fritzy.se

There you go!

Yey, finally I manage to get control over the new system I am using. God, I am lazy! Why can't I put up my website with my own two hands. Why do I need to use such lazy system where I mostly just need to click... It is more sport to type the code in notepad and upload by FTP.

I know the basics, I can always control everything some how in the end anyway.

I have to admit, once I figured out how this system works, it is piece fo cake. No problem!

Jaja... I am on my way! More to come.. weehoo!

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My poker day has not been that good, ok I have collected little money today too, but still I didn't have that feeling, the float... I just didn't have the poker feeling. More or less it was my better knowing which was ruling the game. I think I could have played better in my opinion. I took a break and went home to Mom, just to do something else.

Tomorrow, I am going to meet up with some old friends. That is going to be fun. It is always nice to meet old friends and catch up with some gossips. ;o)

I guess I am going to be little tired, because we are going to meet at lunch time. Time is 4 am here and I should have put my ass in bed long time ago. On the other hand, I slept long yesterday, I think the time was 3 PM when I woke up.... no wonder if I haven't gone to bed yet. This is not good! It is very irresponsible, but that is how I am.. not irresponsible, but I like to be up late at night and sleep at daytime. I don't know why.... just the way it is.

Jaja...

Back tomorrow or so!

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Delete!

Argh!!!!

Isn't it perfect, there tons of tools out there for making a website... why on earth should I sit and make it for "hand". Well, I have control over everything of course. But time!!! it takes time!!!

I was helping a friend yesterday and she was using a simple tool.. well, ok, I thought it was a little complicated. Probably mostly because I wasn't familiar with it. I was paying attention to some simple thing and actually appreciated that.

So, once again, why should I work my ass of when I can do same thing in a few sec? I downloaded this tool and deleted everything I started with. Damit! Hmm... somehow I regret...

I hope I can get control on my webpage in the near future. lol..

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It was my first day of unemployment to... I made a visit to job center to tell them that I was available once again. I got a time in the end of septemeber for a meeting. I hope I can find something before that. Well, something which can give me money.

Poker does not give me money, maybe little for a milk or two. lol...

Jaja... I will hit the pillow and se what I will do later on.

Woha...3 final tables.

Omg! I had a good run today! Weeehooo!

I have been on 3 final tables today. We are not talking much money, but enough for me. It was showing in my bankrolls. ;o)

I made my last day on work too... or yesterday, it is acutally tuesday today. The times goes to fast in between. I have been working on my webpage these past few hours, I added some, and more will show up soon.

I will hit the bed now and try to get up by lunch time anyway. I have some errands to do, I need to get my ass up relative early.

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Long time since last!

I have been working since last update and playing a little poker. Most of the time I have been tired. As soon as I have come home from work I have almost falling asleep directly. Horrible! I am impressed of persons who has children and family. I don't know how I could survive if I had children. I guess you take that extra energy from somewhere. When you are alone you don't need to put in that extra over power if you don't need to.

I guess I will keep updating my blog from now. This is just a short one to let you know I am alive.

By the way, I have starting to work on my own website. I have just put up a little something. It will grow and become much better, but it is a start!

www.fritzy.se

Take care and see you around!

Life is knocking on the door.

Since I have made a few withdrawals lately, I have played less too. I need to hold me within my bankroll. My non-poker live has made me little busy too. I really do not know where the time has gone. Well, for a while ago, I was surrounded of snow and it was cold outside. Now it is no more snow around me and the sun is making every day warmer. The grass is getting greener and it is lovely outside. I can remember when I have enjoyed to be outside last.. Since I have moved to my own apartment in my “hometown” when I have grown up I have got so much energy. It does not feel good to sit in front of the computer the whole day. I have been trying to live more outside the poker tables for a while. That has not hurt my bankroll; it has actually made it good.

Soon it will be even less poker… In the beginning of June, I start a 4-week long work, if everything goes as it is supposed too. I do not know if I am going to have the energy to play which I need. It is easier to make stupid moves when playing if you are tired. It is better to be alert… One stupid bad move can destroy the whole game. That is why I vote for good sleep and good health, if you go for poker player for real.

Anyway, I have done great lately, I cannot complain.

The saddest part with my work is that I am going to miss my fave games. Those are in the middle of the day for me. In a normal life, it is during working time. That is going to feel so weird. I guess it is good for me to slow down already. My body does not need to get a shock when I have to slow down for real. :o)

Winner without winning!

I have not playing that much of poker these past few days. More correct it feels like I have not playing that much. On the other hand, it is easy to forget how much one really plays, if I should be honest. Today has been a sick day… hands after hands have been terrible. Not sure why that is… I am a little scared to play. I hit, but there is always someone who has little better than I do and if I bluff, I would definitely be busted. My bluffing skills suck. I am terrible on bluffing. I should maybe practice on my bluffing skills.

Even if it has been a bad day today, I am kind of happy, because I have players around me who fears me. *evil eye* That sounds bad. huh... I was playing a tourney earlier, and I was lucky to the bubble. I had a nice stack and lost it all because of a stupid semi bluff. In that tourney, I ran in to a guy who I almost kicked out. He said. OMG you HIT!.. as always! I just said, nooo, I do not hit all the time. Almost always - he said! Hehe… It is things like that which makes the game more fun. It is nice when you hear in between what progress you have done in your game. It can be people who you rarely have spoken to before who can come and say that the game is great. It is nice! Me like! I am trying to do my best to improve my skills, even if I am stuck in the treadmill in between.

You do not need to win every time to feel like a winner. :o) I just need to know that I did my best and I could do nothing or when I left the game even if I knew I could stay longer.

$60 became $303

Last week I bought a $60 dollar coupon with my old comp points on Carbon. It was the last chance to use the old comp points. Well, there is still time to use to points, but now they are history for me. I was thinking a little before I decided to use my coupon. The reason was that I wanted to be alert and feel that I had time to put on this tourney. I mean, for me 60 dollar is serious money, money that I do not like to fool around with. That was why I wanted to be on top when I was going to use this coupon. Well, this coupon was not bought with my money, only with deserved points. In my world, it is still a good value over this coupon. It is not every day I spend that kind of money on a tourney, maybe on 5 tourneys. Anyway, I decided to use my coupon this Tuesday. I was doing my very very best in this tourney! Somehow, I think I did a good investment when I bought in to this tourney with $60 dollar buy in. I manage to end up on the final table… I must say, I think I was a bit lucky many times. I took down the 5th place. It is not bad at all! I think my game was very good at that time. It is hard to play against hot big stacks. Sometimes you just have to accept that you are not going to win. Any place in the money bubble was good in my opinion. I must say I am happy with the prize I manage to get out of this deep stack tourney.

Now I have to say bye bye to the old comp points and say hi to the new vip points.

One year older and not much wiser!

I do not know how it went with the work. I am not going to cry if I do not get the job. It was not even a part time; it would not even pay the rent for one month. I thought they had some kind of plan, but guess not. Jaja, we will see if they call me. They had some others to interview too.

This Thursday I had a meeting with my job coach. Hmm… she gave me some homework to do to next week. I have to apply for three jobs to next week. huh… well, it is a goal! If not a work, I need to search for a trainee place. Three jobs…. That should be piece of cake, I hope.

On Friday, I became one year older. I do not feel any wiser actually. Not sure why! Somehow, my mother felt I needed a plate rack that was what she gave me in birthday presents. Cute! Well, she gave me little money too and it was needed. She thought I should buy a jacket and get me a haircut. How nice!

Today, on Saturday, I took me a walk to the central part of my small town. I was looking for a jacked, but I could not find anything. I found one, but it was looking so small. I thought screw the jacket; it is “winter” still. It was freezing outside and stormy weather. I thought my brain was going it freeze, I could feel how it was shrinking of the cold wind. I borrowed my Mother’s car, went to my cousin’s store, and bought me some new curtains instead. Haha… when I was picking up Mom at her job she asked me where the jacket was, I told her that I had bought the curtain instead. I saw her happy face went to a face that I do not like, because of that I hurry to say, well, it is for my poker money I had bought the curtains. The money, which will fell in to my bank account on Tuesday or Wednesday I think. I just switched places with them. :o) Hmm… was the only sound which came from her and she gave me that ugly eye.

I said to Mom that I needed to go somewhere else if I should buy a jacked. They do not have what I want in our small town. Well, they might have, but it is soo expensive. I want a nice jacket, not a sporty one. I can buy a sporty one another time.

We will see when and if I found that jacket of mine. For now, I will focus on pillow and tomorrow I will focus on some poker playing!

I just have to say phew!

The other week our jobcentre had given me a job coach, and I thought it would start after the Easter. Well, I was sure they had said that on last info I was on. Last week I had talked to my handling officer, either he or me mixed up the dates. I was sure he said after Easter! I did care to open the letter from the jobcentre until yesterday! OMG! I was supposed to go on the meeting last Thursday – on Maundy Thursday! This morning I had to call the jobcentre and my coach to say sorry and ask about what was going to happen. Normally they cut you off if you miss a meeting with out a very good excuse.

I hurry to call them just before they open up for business for the day, I mean before they got busy with people. I explained everything for my coach that I do not know whom of us - my handling officer and me - who mixed up the date, because the time was correct. Well, she asked me if I wanted to remain in the program with coach and stuff. Yes, of course… I want! She gave me a new time on this Thursday for real! Haha… It was great to have it solved! However, it is little embarrassing to miss such important thing.

On the schedule for today, I have a job interview. I hate interviews! We will see how that went later, I guess. My last was not a very good one. I was thinking about that one, where I failed. What can I do this time, to make it even better? Somehow, I know where I failed.

Jaja..

Tilt!

Today is a typical day when I normally should say, I quit playing poker! Grr.. Well, this morning I did very good in a tourney and run into a “donkey” who of curse hit river. Actually, I do not know why he even called me first time… and second time he got lucky and hit river. Ok, I can take one lost or two… it has been river, river, river… even if I have had the best hand pre and post flop. If I do not have best hand pre or post flop I hit and some one else has the better hand. It has been tourneys; I have not been able to rule. It does not matter what I do – I cannot win! Times like this I wonder why I even bother to play the game. I just feel like a very bad player who should stick to something else. At same time, I do not know why I even react because I play for fun. I should not tilt… Well, I just have to accept that Poker has brought out the bad loser in me. Maybe it depends on the money game… I do not know! At same time, it is very interesting to notice the change in the feeling. Therefore, I guess it is time for a break now – for a few months! Yeah, whom am I kidding! I will be back another day….. ehh… like tomorrow! I think it has to be enough for today!

I think I will focus on the bed and concentrate on my job interview tomorrow.

Happy Easter!

It is early Easter Saturday morning and I should be in bed if I would be normal. I had good routines for a little while but I destroyed them thanks to that werewolf game I joined for a while ago. It was kind of worth it since I was a winner in the game. Now it is just hard to get back to normal life with normal day and night routines. I will try to do a new start on after Sunday. *rolling my eyes* Actually, I should be in bed now, because we are going to have a small party tomorrow.. uhh… today… - my friend and I. It is going to be fun - I hope… We are going to a dance place, and they are open to 03.00 AM… maybe it is good that I am up at this point. Just to have my body getting use to the times. Doh…

Well, I was playing some poker, so, as every poker player knows… it is easy to forget the time, but is it not that easy to forget a very bad beat. Well, it has been little tough these past two days. Since last week, I am up, I cannot really cry about it. I have been trying to adjust me to this new point system, now when I have figured out how it is working. It is kind of cool actually. I decided to go by my first-born nick. That is just me! I am happy with it! I need to collect 5000 vip points to reach first level. I am on my way, so, in a couple of weeks/month I will reach it. For now, I have 3% of everything. lol… woohoo!

It is looking pretty cool, doesn’t it!
(A part of my carbon space ship!)


Carbon Poker

I took a little break from my computer earlier. It was a well needed break! I think I have too much spare time for my own good. I should cut down on the computer time and do something real! But what? lol… me addicted? HUH??? Not really, it is just too simple to sit by the computer…. and all the friends around the world. Anyway, I did something different today! I took my apostle horses and went to my mother’s house. They were away with the caravan and I knew that before I was walking over there. Ewww… it was a long 6 km! 6km which use to be piece of cake for me for 11 years ago! WTF… damn computer… or should I say boring forest or living too far away from the city or to easy to use the car… I do not know! I just know I had a smaller body 10 years ago and 6 km was piece of cake before. Now it is a nightmare… I think a combination of everything above has made 6 km to a nightmare. On my way to my mother’s house, I met an old friend of my first love. It was nice to meet him. It was like meeting my own life but in better health. Well, at that very same moment I decided that I would make these 6 km to piece of cake before the summer. I just need to get my thumb out of my ass and do something about it. Grr…

I was walking all the very looong way to mother’s house. The reason why I went there was to borrow their second car for today’s reason. Well, at least to move my self and my things to my friend’s house. After the party, I must of course leave the car there.

Jaja… I will prepare me self with some beauty sleep!

Play here play there…

Well, a week ago my favourite poker room updated the software and introduced a vip system. I kind of like the system “I pay for my points and you pay for your points” and that I can use the points to play tourneys. I do like that, because I like tourneys that would save me some money in between. Everything, which can help me save money, is good and welcome. The bigger problem is to climb on the vip ladder. I can of course get points… but the circumstances make it little hard right now to get points. I have to think about 1) my game, 2) my bankroll. Since I cannot refill bankroll, it would be kind of stupid to put a pressure on it at the moment. Otherwise, I like what I see and I can see my self to be rewarded in the future, but not right now. One thing is clear; I cannot reach for the top. I am not a big player! LOLs.

What ever I can get is bonus for me, I do not expect much.

I am a member of a few sites in the network and now is the question, shall I give up my original nickname and play under one of the others, just to gain the bonus from another site in the network. I do like my other nicknames, just because they are a little haughty and there are not many of the other old players who know those nicks. My game works in another way when I play under the other nicknames. The next thing is the reward systems; I should go by the easiest one of course - if I should think smart. The thing is, I am not smart…. Heh! Maybe I am the one who is crazy, but I do not really care for the bonus. I just care for some winnings in between and a bankroll, which goes on plus more than on minus. :oP

I am so fascinated over players who know everything about everything. They know what site, which gives the best reward, or which site not to join because of… etc… I on the other hand know nothing. On the other hand, I might play for me… for fun… maybe to get a few extra dollars in between. Of course, it could be better with a fortune instead of a few dollars.

I think I am always going to be a carbon poker player, no matter what they will come up with. Huh.. of course I have my limits! Well, so far no harm done!

So ok, they took away all the freerolls we had possibility to have eligibility for. That does not matter for me; because it was rare, I played those in the end. Even if I had eligibility, I did not play them. I was trying to play the biggest ones. I can now use my points to buy in on other guaranteed tourneys where there are fewer players. It must be easier to win and that means more money in the end even for me as a low stake player. Maybe I am a dreamer, optimist or too positive in between, but as for now, I go with it. :o)

I think I am done with the thinking… I am going to continue to play where I started.

Poker and TV day!

Sunday!

Omg!!! I forgot to send my sister a birthday card. It was 4 days ago! Mom reminded me about my brother’s birthday, why she did not remind me of my sister’s birthday!

Sad, sad! If sister Yster ever found this blog, I am so sorry about me forgetting your birthday! Well, you are getting old too, and you should probably be happy I did not remind you about how old you are now! :oP And please, do not sit there and laugh at my English! I will see if I can give you a small gift next time we see each other. Did you need to move that far away? Pfft!


Well, I took a well-deserved morning of sleep, as I do almost every morning. Heh… I must think, I called mother, I was trying to get a Sunday dinner at Mom’s house, but that was pfft… no dinner today! Mother was busy working! Damit!

I choose to spend my day in front of the TV and the computer. I saw some crazy programs! One was a show where they had a person they hypnotized to do crazy things, and later this guy should search in his mind how he ended those scenes he was in. I thought it was little funny and crazy, the stuff he did. It would have been more fun if he answer the questions totally wrong and was very surprised when he was watching what he actually did. He was however laughing his ass off. Well, I would probably have done the same in his shoes. I will watch the next show and see if it goes, as I want to. Otherwise, I might think it is rigged the whole thing. Especially when it is just short cut, you are allowed to see.

This ****ing show was disturbing me while I was playing poker. I was so into the TV instead of the poker table. Actually, it does not matter that much, because my cards were so cold, so cold. I did not even hit a pair. When I had something one time, I somehow was sitting out and autofold. That was not my fault. It was very very annoying. I could not do a shit! Well, shit happens in between. I was close to money, but not close enough for me to be tilted. That was good.

Later, on the evening we had out team tourney. FFS … that tourney totally sucked! LOL… Yesterday I had three of my teammates on my table and could not play as much as I wanted when I actually hit with my cards and had good hands. I was kind of praying that I would end up alone on the table today. Yes! I was alone on my table, no teammates on the table and I did not do well today. I had AQ and was on BB and my opponent had raised preflop with one blind…. Pfft…. When the blind BB is 20 chips, you just have to call a raise on 40. It is just 20 chips, too cheap to fold too, unless you do not have totally crap. I called, and of course hit Q on flop. I had put him on AX because of his very weak raise on preflop. If I hade done the same as he, I would definitely have lost. I bet flop and he re-raises big, I think he was bluffing me. I called. I bet more next hand, I was definitely playing as if I thought I had him. I was working his stack down to zero! Yeah, I manage to get his whole stack on the table in the end, and he shows his AA. Bah… I think I manage to put my hope in that pot too, because I lost the hope after that hand. I felt I would be out a few hands after that, and I was that too. It felt like a small visit in that tourney.

I took revenge in another tourney. For a change I was playing a Holdem – Omaha Hi, I ended up on the final table. Woohooo! I do hate blind stealers, because when I think they are bluffing they actually have something. The guy I was up against when we were in money was raising as normal pre flop, I had AJ and because of that, I called. I did not hit the flop or any other card for that matter. I decided to push all in, I mean, he had bluffed me before, so why not this time. I of course he had top pair on flop. Grr… I was out! Well, I am not a big fan of Omaha, because Omaha players are so crazy! I think third place was good, even if it was small money! FFS.. Those Omaha players are calling with anything. No respect at all! UGH!!!

I think was going +-0 today too!

******

Well, I finally got my money from my withdrawal the other day; I just need to transfer the money to my back account now. It was so great to see the mail from my e-wallet that the money had finally arrived. I expect them to be on my account on Wednesday. Great!

Conflict in brain

OMG,.. I was surprised over that I had not written anything since 1st of April. All my thoughts have been on a werewolf game. Ugh, I was so in to the game that I forgot about everything around… not forgot, but just ignored it for a while. Hehe… Well, when it comes to poker I have done well, I cannot complain about it. I have doubling up my bankroll these past few days that is if I am looking on what I have lost. LMAO… + - 0 would be the best. Hmm.. I am still waiting for my money, which I made a withdrawal of the other day. Obviously they are stuck in some kind of bottleneck, there is nothing more to do then to wait. It is little annoying since it normally use to take a few minutes. Grr… Patience, patience!!!

Right now, my biggest problem is my mouse arm. I think, I have some kind of inflammation, do not know. It is swollen and hurting… It is ok when I am typing, but when moving… not good! I decided to put the mouse on the other side of the keyboard. Haha… omg, it gave me a conflict in my brain. Well, I am left handed, but I am use to use the right hand for everything except crocheting and writing… and maybe some other stuff too. Mostly I use the right hand. Since I am not use to have it that day my finger had like a will of they own. Ugh… I thought I would change the options for the mouse settings in the computer to make it easier to adjust to the new changes. Maybe it takes a few days. It is not easy. It would have been better if my mouse pad would work properly on my laptop and the buttons to the touch pad. Right now, everything is confused in my brain,…

It is Saturday today and I am waiting for the team game. It is the first game of April. I hope we could win this month. Maybe I should prepare me self for the game. The game starts about an hour. Goo Divas!!!

Almost like a space ship!

Today I had to visit the jobcentre. It seems like they really want me to get a work soon. Well, I am not sure if I want a job coach… Maybe I can talk about my problems with him or her. It will be little interesting… but still, not sure if I feel comfortable with some one pushing me around. Grr...

At same time, I was at the job centre I got a phone call about a job I had been applying for last week. They wanted me to come by on Friday for an interview. I am looking forward to this interview since I worked my ass of with my CV. I really want this job; it is little of my hobby. If I get the job, I am going to teach people to play poker!

Yeah yeah…. I know, it was a bad April fool joke! It is a teaching job for coursed which has to do with computers, internet and webdesign… I have a good education for that part. I am going there on Friday. We will see then what is happening.

After the visit on the job centre, I went to Mom’s house. I needed to print out some stuff for Friday, just to show off how competent for this work. LMAO… Serious, I want this job. I am not going to cry if I do not get it. However, I will know that I did my really best to get it.

When it comes to poker, it has not been much of that today. The site has been down for updates. It is up again and it is like a space ship, many new things to play with. LMAO. Since I am a tourney donk, I signed up for a tourney to begin with. It was a hard tourney, I am glad it was only an add-on, I used. It was for sure waste of money. I was busted out almost right after the first break. When I was out of that tourney, I wend for a second one…. That one will pay out! As for now, I am on top one and final table. What place I will end up on is not set yet. It will however be some kind of money. :o)

Well, it is better I focus on the tourney instead of writing this. ;o)

Finding way

OMG! I cannot understand why I am so tired! I slept so much yesterday. I cannot continue with the sleeping, if I do, I cannot sleep tonight. Maybe I slept too much… I do not know!

Earlier, I called my mother, because I wanted her as a private driver today. I needed to go to the bank and do some errands. Unfortunately, she had other plans and same goes for tomorrow. I guess I have to take the bus or apostle horses. Grr… If I take the bus, I cannot go to the second hand store that I wanted to do too… want to look for a small table to have beside my armchair.

Well, not everything can go by plans… once again I cancelled my withdrawal from the poker site. I am going to make a try tomorrow after the new update, which is coming up. Maybe that is why it takes such time. Normally I have my money in my e-wallet after a few min, this time I did not get it at all, not even after 24 hours. It makes me wonder, what is wrong. Well, I wait until tomorrow; there is no hurry - I think. It is good to have a “decent” bankroll for my limit for a change too. I hate to have my bankroll under 3 numbers. It I make a withdrawals, I take all the winnings and leave the rest. That means I need to restart again.

The positive thing is that money falls in, in between to my bankroll. That means I do not suck totally when it comes to poker. This year, so far has been a XXX dollar plus. Last year I was, with this time minus XXX dollar…. LMAO… It was a big leak last year. Well, it has been a leak since my first day. Slowly I am getting it all back (I hope). So far, it has been a great progress to success. It is still a long way to go to success.

It is all about finding the way! I was talking to a lady on one of the communities I am a member of. I admire the game of hers; I am so fascinated of her game and that is working for her. If I choose to play like her, I am def beaten. Even if I admire her game, I do not like to have her on my table. LMAO….Especially not until my eyes are wide opened. I was saying to her that every sad-bad/beat I am experiencing give me a chance to improve my game and help my skill to be better. Even if I hate to experience sad beats, I get something out of it. At first, I get mad, but that changes later to something better. Not mad because I lost, but maybe because I did not play right or did not see what was coming up. It is so much with this game.

I will continue my playing now, as for now I am playing cash games, and I think it is so boring. That is why I wrote this blog. I had to have something on the side of the table. It seems to be a never-ending story to play cash games. Of course, the goal is to win as much as possible. Still is feels so goalless in away. It is easier to have patience for a tourney; the goal is so obvious in a tourney. There are more things happen in a tourney. First there are X people who need to be kicked out and after you must fight to get the best place you can in the tourney. As I use to do, to keep my patience on the right place, first count people and after count money. :o)

Back to the never-ending game!

Stroke Monday from the calendar!

Sunday gave team play on Wass poker. The first hour I had great hands, since we were so many from my team it did not work out, as I wanted. We like to have our team members in the tourney as long as possible. It would have been cruel of me, if I had kicked out my teammates. Grr…

The family came home from the cabin and the dog was happy about it. I had dinner at Mom’s before they drove me home with my IKEA stuff. All my things, that I bought on IKEA was working well, except for the computer desk. I need a star screwdriver do have it fixed. I made a temporary solution, just to try the desk out, it is perfect…. Just need to fix the screws!

As I thought, I blow the budget with my IKEA trip. I do not know how to manage this month. LMAO. Well, it has to be crisp bread and water until I get money next time. I have made a new withdraw from one of my poker rooms. It was stupid of me to cancel earlier. This time I choose a smaller amount to withdraw. I save some for later if needed.

I have a birthday coming up later in April; maybe I can get some money then. I might survive anyway. If it would be a big crisis, I can always visit Mom at dinnertime… or I can visit grandma or so. That is great with relatives! ;o)

When it comes to Monday, it is a waste of time and day! Just stroke it from the calendar… I woke up with a horrible headache. I think it is the dry air in my apartment, which creates my headache. It is too cold out side yet to have the window open during the night to get some better air in to the apartment. I was up a few hours; I could not stand the headache… I just went back to bed and woke up just before midnight. It might be better if I go back to bed; it would be stupid if I screw up my good day and nigh routines again. I have been a good and gone to bed in time and woke up on normal times. Well, I better go back to bed and try to get up before lunch is over. ;o)

IKEA-trip

It has been a busy day! I woke up early because my family were getting ready for their trip to our “Summer Cabin”. Me, I do not like to go there when it is winter for a couple of reason. 1. It is cold. 2. I hate going over the ice – the cabin is on an island 8 km from dry land. 3. I had the smell from scooter afterwards. I rather stay at Mom’s house and take care of their dog.

When the family had gone and I knew they were almost on the island I went to IKEA for shopping. Well, I was going to buy only a computer desk – as small one. Ok, not everything goes by plans. I bought a lamp, a few things to the bathroom and things for the kitchen. It was not too expensive… but I think the trip was blowing the budget for April! Not good, and I cancelled my last withdraw. Grr.. I guess I need to withdraw anyway. Damit!

I was so tired when I came back to the house; I just wanted to take a nap. Just when I decided to lie down in front of the TV, a friend of mine was calling me. Ok, he said, I am there in 1 minute. OMG… ffs… I could not say that he could not come this time. We do not see each other that often so I said ok.

I am glad that he came over because it was so fun. It is a long time ago I was laughing that much! My tears ran. Just before he arrived, I had to say no to the team game. It was a bit sad and I could not play the 2K freeroll either. I was inlogged and registered just in case I would have the time to play the freeroll.

Even if I missed the 2K freeroll and the team league, I had a good time. My friend and I love to play games. Since he is not so involved in Texas holdem and do not know much about that game we decided to play normal 5 draw. We do not just compare the cards we even play them. We decided to go to 21 and that means no draw after 15 points. We love to tease each other. Just to push each other to the losing edge. In this game, you cannot bluff. If you try to bluff, you will be busted. We only play for fun.

We decided that the winner would be best of three games. Ok, I lost first round! Next time I was in big lead. I stranded on 15 this for a long time… but still manage to win the second round. The third round we were equal most to the times in between I was little ahead and he took in on my and passed me and he was a little ahead of me etc.. At one moment, I had 2 pair, JJ and AA… I had won the game and we were comparing our hands. The best hand win and get points for what ever the hand is. Ok, he was showing me 10 10, and I cannot just be quiet… My big mouth said to him, “Where do you thing you are going with your pair of 10s?” I put down my pair of J on the table with a smile…. And he gave me a response and said, “Well, I was going longer than you anyway!” and he was showing of his third 10. He had three of a kind of 10s. Bah…. My big mouth and me. I just lost it! I was totally stunned! I lost my cheek and I was laughing my ass off! I thought I had the best hand and was supposed to be a little haughty against his 10s. Well, well, he can have his trips of 10s… I won the second game too! I was the winner of three rounds. He can be such cheater if he loses and because of that, I game him the opportunity to have a final short round a win or lose hand. He won that had with a straight! He can have it. I am still the best out of three rounds. Hehe… After that hand it was getting late, we decided to end the day and game.

It was a great day in the end. I think I am going to sleep very good this night, at least better than the night before.

Almost a normal life with the family

Around 12.00 AM, my mother came and picked me up after her short day on work. She was surprised over me not having my bag and computer with me. Huh,.. Spending a weekend away from my computer is not an option normally. I told her that I wanted to borrow her car later on, because I needed to go to jobcentre to get a new action document/schedule for my job applying and stuff. I needed to know when to report how my applying had been working out. So far, it has not been good, and I had misplaced my old document. I needed a new one. They had lunch at the jobcentre; I took the opportunity to eat lunch at Mom’s house before I went into the city again.

When I came up to the jobcentre, I said with a smile that I had cleaned away the very important document and that I needed a new one. I took the opportunity to ask the guy how serious I needed to be in my job applying and so on. I told him my history and stuff like that. Immediately he changed status and thing in his computer and gave me some info for a job I could apply for in the next couple of days. He also said that he will suggest me if the company is calling him for suggestion of unemployed. Woohoo, that would be great because it is one of my hobbies. I love to work with computers also teach. This work was a kind of teaching work… I really hope I can get it. That was really great! Well, unfortunately I had already made my application yesterday for this work. Hehe… I am a good girl!

After my visit on the jobcentre, I went home to my place and left the action document and the other info at home. I packed my bag and my computer and went home to mother’s house. I stopped by the store on the way, to shop some snacks and stuff.

The whole family were watching TV when I came back after my errands. I unpacked my laptop and sat down at the couch with the rest of the family. While we were watching TV, I was hitting for 2 sngs… what a joke! I had hardly been watching the cards before I was out. First I read AK on my opponent and I had 9 9 on my hand, while she were pushing, I were calling and on river she checked and I pushed all in… Great! She had 4 of a kind of sevens. Doh!!! In next sng I had 10 10, I raised… I forgot one important thing – it was a bounty with 2-dollar buy in. I raised a little pre flop and every one was folding except for one player. Ok. I could probably hit straight with my hand after flop, because of that I was pushing… yeah yeah. I was out, and my opponent had 89! Great! He/she hit house on river! Hrmph!

I gave up poker for the day! I mean it is hard to play focus while you are sitting in the middle of the living room with the whole family of mine. Maybe it was a good decision. After a while, my mobile phone was screaming. An old friend of mine called me to inform me about him being in the city for the weekend. Of course, I invited him over…

Times goes fast when you have fun… when it had gone 3 hours and the dinnertime was almost past. I was getting to wonder if my friend had fallen asleep at his Mom’s house. Just at that moment, he called and said that, he was on his way over.

He were here for a few hours, we had lots of fun, talking about old times and stuff. We half made some plans for tomorrow. Maybe it will be an IKEA trip… Well, I have to go to IKEA!

It was a nice day with family and friend….
Lovely weather too!

Patience killed by headache

This morning, when I woke up I had a little headache. I was hoping it would go away after a while. Well, I was not that lucky! Fresh air use to do fine for headache, I went for a little walk, I went to the nearest little store around here. I bought a soda and went home again. When I came home, the headache was getting worse. I did not know what to do, I took some painkillers and it seems like my headache was laughing at the painkillers. It uses to take some time before the killers are doing their work.

I registered for a tourney and I was doing great, I had a good position almost the whole tourney. Most of the time I was in top 5, I was happy. Towards the end, when there were between 15-20 players left I was still going strong. The blinds were not too big; I could have managed to the final table. I am pretty sure about it. The biggest problem was that I could not stand my headache, it was killing my patience and because of that I killed me self on the table. When I was finally out with A8 I went to bed. I was trying to get some sleep. Maybe I slept or maybe I was awake, I do not know! It felt like I had not slept at all when I was getting back to life after a few hours. The headache was still there and still is, but I can live with it.

I made me some dinner and called Mom about my bathing suit. She said that she could probably help me to modify it. She is picking me up tomorrow. I am going to spend the weekend at their house. I guess it is better I am getting to bed early tonight.

Well, first I am going to play a Pokerspace tourney. I hope my patience will work better this time. Grr…

Top 5, no win.

I have just finished the Pokerspace tourney on Carbon. There were only 29 players in the game. I do not know, but this game was so weird. It was like I had the same stack all the way through the tourney, until I was busted out. Every time, when I really had something good in my hand, every one was folding. I could not pick up any decent pot. So weird, it was like every one knew that I was holding the best hand. If I was trying to bluff, always someone had something. It was as if everything was standing still.

I ended up in top five, I knew I had the best hand pre-flop and the other guy, with the bigger stack crushed me already on the flop. He flopped flush… grr… I did not expect to win. It would have been fun to get money anyway. I have playing against those players before and every one of them, almost everyone anyway after crazy. Even if they say something else, they are crazy in my opinion.

The tourney is over and no money for me! :o( I think top 5 could have got something, that would given me the buy in back. I do not know why top 5 was not paid. It uses to be top 5 in every other tourney.

I guess it is better for me to sleep now!
Maybe I can dream about this big win! :oD

Not much poker but a bathing suit

It has not been much of poker today! I registered for a tourney earlier and it had a good start. After 30 min maybe, I was out brutally. I flopped straight, there were some people who were betting, and raising, I figured that some of them has something. I pushed all in to get chips for it. Crap, I was beaten by a bigger straight and even this guy flopped straight. Doh!! I was out! I gave up and went to bed to make history of my headache.

When I woke up from my nap, my headache was still there. Crap! Well, it was not much to do about that! I had made some plans with my mother, I was going to have dinner at their house and after the dinner, Mom had to come with me to the store. My money had arrived today and I needed to shop some food and stuff. Since I do not have a car, she needed to follow me. I could not borrow her car. I could, but then I have to go back with car. That was not an option. She had to follow. The shopping bags were so heavy; I could not carry them home from the store. Well, at least I have food for a while!

Earlier today, I made a withdrawal from one of my poker accounts. I did not know when I was supposed to get money (it was before I notice I already had money on my bank account). I made a withdrawal just in case. At the time when I was at the store, I picked up a package that I had ordered for a few weeks ago. I had ordered a bathing suit! Mom said why you bought the bathing suit. You cannot use it, I guess you are out of money soon and cannot afford to buy in for the indoor swimming pool. Hrmph!!! I told her I was lucky and had won some money on poker and had just made a withdrawal. Money would not be a problem this time. LMAO….

When I came home, I hurry to open the package with the bathing suit, just to see how it looked like. I had forgotten which one I had ordered. I held it up in front of my body! OMG!!! There was a problem! Normally it uses to be a problem about having a too big body and to small clothes. This time it was the other way around. The bathing suit was two sizes too big! Now I do not know what to do! Shall I try to modify it and risk having it looking weird or shall I try to send it back to have a new one. The problem is that I have opened it already, and I am not sure if I can to trade it for a smaller one. I am a bit disappointed! I was checking the sizes before I ordered the bathing suit.

I was hoping to start with the swimming tomorrow, now when I am living so close to the indoor swimming pools. It is good to exercise, especially when you sit for hours in front of the computer. It makes me think clearer too… and that is good for my poker playing.

I have a Pokerspace tourney coming up soon on carbon. I need to get ready for it… collect my thought and so on. Well, it is still one more hour too go before it starts.

Little accident!

Oops! Did not think about that.. but yesterdays post is posted with today's date! LMAO...

I have a little to learn about this blog tool, before I can master it for real! Ugh!!


Doh, I got some headache now. Need to take care of it!

Tough day and little win!

It has been a tough day today; I have not slept that good during the night because I had to sleep with a stopped-up nose. That sucks! I had to have a stopped-up nose. Every time that happens, I get some kind of panic. I use to have some kind of medicine at home, but I did not have any this time. I just had to be patience and wait to the morning. Almost the first thing I did when I woke up was to take the bus into the city and shop medicine.

This day has been so slow and I was out of energy. Well, that did not keep me from playing some poker. I was playing a few sngs, since they were bounty there were no meaning to try to bluff either. On the table sat a headhunter who called everything with any two cards. It was killing the fun; I was trying to end up in money with patience instead. I did not receive any playable cards at all. I registered for at tourney later on where I ended up in money and had my buy in back. That was great, but I was not that happy with the game. It started out just find, but later I lost half my stack. I got the cards, but there were always someone with a little better hand. Well, shit happens…

I have spent the evening in front of the TV as usual, and I was chatting with a friend of mine. I was surprised over him asking me about a friend of mine, that I have on my msn and he does not. He was looking on my profile. I was only surprised. I told him that this friend was living in another country and was my teammate on Wass online. That we were on the same team and we use to play against other teams. I explained about our team games and that we are about 10 ladies who are playing on the same team. He wanted of course join the team; I had to tell him that he is not a lady and definitely not a Diva. :op

It was fun talking with him, I miss him… we had so much fun when we were children. He asked if I was still playing poker… I told him of course. While I was chatting with him, I was playing a sng satellite for a bigger tourney. I do not like talking with people that much when I am heads up, I need to focus. The positive thing it all my poker friends understand it when you mention it. It is a bit hectically when you are heads up online. I could not tell him to be quiet. We are not talking everyday … I continue chatting with my friend. Between every letter or word the table popped up, I thought I was going crazy. Well, it was paying out so I am happy with it anyway. I took the first place and got the coupon for this bigger tourney. I hope I can play it this upcoming weekend. It would be great.

In the end, it was a great day even if it was tough.

Springtime

Lovely, it is wonderful weather outside. The sun is shining and it is screaming springtime… Still we have lots of snow everywhere, but you can see little of the asphalt anyway. I can hardly wait until all the snow is gone, at least from the roads. I want to be able to take a ride on the bike and be able to take walks without being afraid of falling cause of the slippery ice. It could be less slushy; it is not fun to get wet feet when walking. Soon I hope, wish and I guess it will be nice when I have my birthday within a month. (Of course my picture is taken on the on the back side of my house, no sun that this time 2 AM).

The sun is up longer and longer each day and that is great! I hate when it is dark outside. Ok, only time it has its beauty is drying Christmas time when it is Advent candlesticks and starts in the windows and lights in and on trees, roofs and walls. Now we are going towards summer… screw Christmas for now. I feel my energy is better for every day, even if it is on low power. I do not know really how to charge the batteries. My batteries were running out when I was living with my ex. Not sure what to call him yet, we are not done yet, since I moved to my own apartment in December.

Yeah yeah… To quote grandma’s latest partner: “Life is like in a bag!” I am not sure I know what he meant by that. It sounded fun when he said it. I am just glad grandma listened to her common sense and left him, before they were getting serious. He did not really fit in with our family and relatives. Hehe…

In a moment or so I am going to visit my Mom, I was hoping to get some dinner there. I just hope I can be home in time to my poker evening. I have some tourneys I want to play later. I guess there will be no problem with the time. The sad thing is that I have not my car here. At same time, I can manage anyway and it is good with a walk or two in between. It is good for the health.

Now, it is time to take the Apostle horses and walk to mothers work. It is just a few km and it will not kill me – I hope! :o)

First blog!

Welcome to my first blog at this site!

Well, I will try to have it updated at least a few days a week if not everyday. We will see about that!

I think most of this blog will be about poker and my experience / insight / moods etc. Maybe it is better to point this out directly; I am definitely not a pro when it comes to poker. I have a lot to learn. I do my very be improve my skill from time to time, since it is easy to be stuck in some kind of treadmill. Sometimes it is good to step away and think about the game, maybe read some magazine or a book… it can be good to watch others, how they play etc. I read somewhere that you should study other game for as long as you play. If you play 4 hours, you should study 4 hours too. Well, that was what I read; I do not know where I read it… Do not take it for a fact; I cannot bring up the source.

Sometimes there will be some kind of language conflict. I write directly from Swedish to English. Yeah! I know; it is long way from perfect English with perfect grammar and spelling. Sometimes the expression fails big. It can be fun in between. *blush*

I guess there will be some stories from the life too. Ugh! Poker and life can go hand in hand sometimes or just be a big conflict. As for now, I am between job and studies… I am almost done with my teacher studies; I have not done my exam report yet. I cannot get a job in the school yet. I need to have another job until I get my thumb out of my ass and make this exam report. On the other hand, I am not sure I want to be a teacher… yes, I want to teach, but not sure if I want to work with kids. You know, there is an expression: “Kids of today….” They scare me! LMAO… Maybe that is why I have not done that stupid report yet. Stupid and stupid! Poker is a big part of it too, I guess. At least it was from the beginning! Everything is fun when it is new. Poker was fun for me too in the beginning of my poker career. Well, there are other things in life too, which throws spanners in the works.

In the end, when it comes around everything is about decisions. Ugh!!!

This is it for this time!