Life is knocking on the door.

Since I have made a few withdrawals lately, I have played less too. I need to hold me within my bankroll. My non-poker live has made me little busy too. I really do not know where the time has gone. Well, for a while ago, I was surrounded of snow and it was cold outside. Now it is no more snow around me and the sun is making every day warmer. The grass is getting greener and it is lovely outside. I can remember when I have enjoyed to be outside last.. Since I have moved to my own apartment in my “hometown” when I have grown up I have got so much energy. It does not feel good to sit in front of the computer the whole day. I have been trying to live more outside the poker tables for a while. That has not hurt my bankroll; it has actually made it good.

Soon it will be even less poker… In the beginning of June, I start a 4-week long work, if everything goes as it is supposed too. I do not know if I am going to have the energy to play which I need. It is easier to make stupid moves when playing if you are tired. It is better to be alert… One stupid bad move can destroy the whole game. That is why I vote for good sleep and good health, if you go for poker player for real.

Anyway, I have done great lately, I cannot complain.

The saddest part with my work is that I am going to miss my fave games. Those are in the middle of the day for me. In a normal life, it is during working time. That is going to feel so weird. I guess it is good for me to slow down already. My body does not need to get a shock when I have to slow down for real. :o)

Winner without winning!

I have not playing that much of poker these past few days. More correct it feels like I have not playing that much. On the other hand, it is easy to forget how much one really plays, if I should be honest. Today has been a sick day… hands after hands have been terrible. Not sure why that is… I am a little scared to play. I hit, but there is always someone who has little better than I do and if I bluff, I would definitely be busted. My bluffing skills suck. I am terrible on bluffing. I should maybe practice on my bluffing skills.

Even if it has been a bad day today, I am kind of happy, because I have players around me who fears me. *evil eye* That sounds bad. huh... I was playing a tourney earlier, and I was lucky to the bubble. I had a nice stack and lost it all because of a stupid semi bluff. In that tourney, I ran in to a guy who I almost kicked out. He said. OMG you HIT!.. as always! I just said, nooo, I do not hit all the time. Almost always - he said! Hehe… It is things like that which makes the game more fun. It is nice when you hear in between what progress you have done in your game. It can be people who you rarely have spoken to before who can come and say that the game is great. It is nice! Me like! I am trying to do my best to improve my skills, even if I am stuck in the treadmill in between.

You do not need to win every time to feel like a winner. :o) I just need to know that I did my best and I could do nothing or when I left the game even if I knew I could stay longer.