$60 became $303

Last week I bought a $60 dollar coupon with my old comp points on Carbon. It was the last chance to use the old comp points. Well, there is still time to use to points, but now they are history for me. I was thinking a little before I decided to use my coupon. The reason was that I wanted to be alert and feel that I had time to put on this tourney. I mean, for me 60 dollar is serious money, money that I do not like to fool around with. That was why I wanted to be on top when I was going to use this coupon. Well, this coupon was not bought with my money, only with deserved points. In my world, it is still a good value over this coupon. It is not every day I spend that kind of money on a tourney, maybe on 5 tourneys. Anyway, I decided to use my coupon this Tuesday. I was doing my very very best in this tourney! Somehow, I think I did a good investment when I bought in to this tourney with $60 dollar buy in. I manage to end up on the final table… I must say, I think I was a bit lucky many times. I took down the 5th place. It is not bad at all! I think my game was very good at that time. It is hard to play against hot big stacks. Sometimes you just have to accept that you are not going to win. Any place in the money bubble was good in my opinion. I must say I am happy with the prize I manage to get out of this deep stack tourney.

Now I have to say bye bye to the old comp points and say hi to the new vip points.

One year older and not much wiser!

I do not know how it went with the work. I am not going to cry if I do not get the job. It was not even a part time; it would not even pay the rent for one month. I thought they had some kind of plan, but guess not. Jaja, we will see if they call me. They had some others to interview too.

This Thursday I had a meeting with my job coach. Hmm… she gave me some homework to do to next week. I have to apply for three jobs to next week. huh… well, it is a goal! If not a work, I need to search for a trainee place. Three jobs…. That should be piece of cake, I hope.

On Friday, I became one year older. I do not feel any wiser actually. Not sure why! Somehow, my mother felt I needed a plate rack that was what she gave me in birthday presents. Cute! Well, she gave me little money too and it was needed. She thought I should buy a jacket and get me a haircut. How nice!

Today, on Saturday, I took me a walk to the central part of my small town. I was looking for a jacked, but I could not find anything. I found one, but it was looking so small. I thought screw the jacket; it is “winter” still. It was freezing outside and stormy weather. I thought my brain was going it freeze, I could feel how it was shrinking of the cold wind. I borrowed my Mother’s car, went to my cousin’s store, and bought me some new curtains instead. Haha… when I was picking up Mom at her job she asked me where the jacket was, I told her that I had bought the curtain instead. I saw her happy face went to a face that I do not like, because of that I hurry to say, well, it is for my poker money I had bought the curtains. The money, which will fell in to my bank account on Tuesday or Wednesday I think. I just switched places with them. :o) Hmm… was the only sound which came from her and she gave me that ugly eye.

I said to Mom that I needed to go somewhere else if I should buy a jacked. They do not have what I want in our small town. Well, they might have, but it is soo expensive. I want a nice jacket, not a sporty one. I can buy a sporty one another time.

We will see when and if I found that jacket of mine. For now, I will focus on pillow and tomorrow I will focus on some poker playing!

I just have to say phew!

The other week our jobcentre had given me a job coach, and I thought it would start after the Easter. Well, I was sure they had said that on last info I was on. Last week I had talked to my handling officer, either he or me mixed up the dates. I was sure he said after Easter! I did care to open the letter from the jobcentre until yesterday! OMG! I was supposed to go on the meeting last Thursday – on Maundy Thursday! This morning I had to call the jobcentre and my coach to say sorry and ask about what was going to happen. Normally they cut you off if you miss a meeting with out a very good excuse.

I hurry to call them just before they open up for business for the day, I mean before they got busy with people. I explained everything for my coach that I do not know whom of us - my handling officer and me - who mixed up the date, because the time was correct. Well, she asked me if I wanted to remain in the program with coach and stuff. Yes, of course… I want! She gave me a new time on this Thursday for real! Haha… It was great to have it solved! However, it is little embarrassing to miss such important thing.

On the schedule for today, I have a job interview. I hate interviews! We will see how that went later, I guess. My last was not a very good one. I was thinking about that one, where I failed. What can I do this time, to make it even better? Somehow, I know where I failed.

Jaja..

Tilt!

Today is a typical day when I normally should say, I quit playing poker! Grr.. Well, this morning I did very good in a tourney and run into a “donkey” who of curse hit river. Actually, I do not know why he even called me first time… and second time he got lucky and hit river. Ok, I can take one lost or two… it has been river, river, river… even if I have had the best hand pre and post flop. If I do not have best hand pre or post flop I hit and some one else has the better hand. It has been tourneys; I have not been able to rule. It does not matter what I do – I cannot win! Times like this I wonder why I even bother to play the game. I just feel like a very bad player who should stick to something else. At same time, I do not know why I even react because I play for fun. I should not tilt… Well, I just have to accept that Poker has brought out the bad loser in me. Maybe it depends on the money game… I do not know! At same time, it is very interesting to notice the change in the feeling. Therefore, I guess it is time for a break now – for a few months! Yeah, whom am I kidding! I will be back another day….. ehh… like tomorrow! I think it has to be enough for today!

I think I will focus on the bed and concentrate on my job interview tomorrow.

Happy Easter!

It is early Easter Saturday morning and I should be in bed if I would be normal. I had good routines for a little while but I destroyed them thanks to that werewolf game I joined for a while ago. It was kind of worth it since I was a winner in the game. Now it is just hard to get back to normal life with normal day and night routines. I will try to do a new start on after Sunday. *rolling my eyes* Actually, I should be in bed now, because we are going to have a small party tomorrow.. uhh… today… - my friend and I. It is going to be fun - I hope… We are going to a dance place, and they are open to 03.00 AM… maybe it is good that I am up at this point. Just to have my body getting use to the times. Doh…

Well, I was playing some poker, so, as every poker player knows… it is easy to forget the time, but is it not that easy to forget a very bad beat. Well, it has been little tough these past two days. Since last week, I am up, I cannot really cry about it. I have been trying to adjust me to this new point system, now when I have figured out how it is working. It is kind of cool actually. I decided to go by my first-born nick. That is just me! I am happy with it! I need to collect 5000 vip points to reach first level. I am on my way, so, in a couple of weeks/month I will reach it. For now, I have 3% of everything. lol… woohoo!

It is looking pretty cool, doesn’t it!
(A part of my carbon space ship!)


Carbon Poker

I took a little break from my computer earlier. It was a well needed break! I think I have too much spare time for my own good. I should cut down on the computer time and do something real! But what? lol… me addicted? HUH??? Not really, it is just too simple to sit by the computer…. and all the friends around the world. Anyway, I did something different today! I took my apostle horses and went to my mother’s house. They were away with the caravan and I knew that before I was walking over there. Ewww… it was a long 6 km! 6km which use to be piece of cake for me for 11 years ago! WTF… damn computer… or should I say boring forest or living too far away from the city or to easy to use the car… I do not know! I just know I had a smaller body 10 years ago and 6 km was piece of cake before. Now it is a nightmare… I think a combination of everything above has made 6 km to a nightmare. On my way to my mother’s house, I met an old friend of my first love. It was nice to meet him. It was like meeting my own life but in better health. Well, at that very same moment I decided that I would make these 6 km to piece of cake before the summer. I just need to get my thumb out of my ass and do something about it. Grr…

I was walking all the very looong way to mother’s house. The reason why I went there was to borrow their second car for today’s reason. Well, at least to move my self and my things to my friend’s house. After the party, I must of course leave the car there.

Jaja… I will prepare me self with some beauty sleep!

Play here play there…

Well, a week ago my favourite poker room updated the software and introduced a vip system. I kind of like the system “I pay for my points and you pay for your points” and that I can use the points to play tourneys. I do like that, because I like tourneys that would save me some money in between. Everything, which can help me save money, is good and welcome. The bigger problem is to climb on the vip ladder. I can of course get points… but the circumstances make it little hard right now to get points. I have to think about 1) my game, 2) my bankroll. Since I cannot refill bankroll, it would be kind of stupid to put a pressure on it at the moment. Otherwise, I like what I see and I can see my self to be rewarded in the future, but not right now. One thing is clear; I cannot reach for the top. I am not a big player! LOLs.

What ever I can get is bonus for me, I do not expect much.

I am a member of a few sites in the network and now is the question, shall I give up my original nickname and play under one of the others, just to gain the bonus from another site in the network. I do like my other nicknames, just because they are a little haughty and there are not many of the other old players who know those nicks. My game works in another way when I play under the other nicknames. The next thing is the reward systems; I should go by the easiest one of course - if I should think smart. The thing is, I am not smart…. Heh! Maybe I am the one who is crazy, but I do not really care for the bonus. I just care for some winnings in between and a bankroll, which goes on plus more than on minus. :oP

I am so fascinated over players who know everything about everything. They know what site, which gives the best reward, or which site not to join because of… etc… I on the other hand know nothing. On the other hand, I might play for me… for fun… maybe to get a few extra dollars in between. Of course, it could be better with a fortune instead of a few dollars.

I think I am always going to be a carbon poker player, no matter what they will come up with. Huh.. of course I have my limits! Well, so far no harm done!

So ok, they took away all the freerolls we had possibility to have eligibility for. That does not matter for me; because it was rare, I played those in the end. Even if I had eligibility, I did not play them. I was trying to play the biggest ones. I can now use my points to buy in on other guaranteed tourneys where there are fewer players. It must be easier to win and that means more money in the end even for me as a low stake player. Maybe I am a dreamer, optimist or too positive in between, but as for now, I go with it. :o)

I think I am done with the thinking… I am going to continue to play where I started.

Poker and TV day!

Sunday!

Omg!!! I forgot to send my sister a birthday card. It was 4 days ago! Mom reminded me about my brother’s birthday, why she did not remind me of my sister’s birthday!

Sad, sad! If sister Yster ever found this blog, I am so sorry about me forgetting your birthday! Well, you are getting old too, and you should probably be happy I did not remind you about how old you are now! :oP And please, do not sit there and laugh at my English! I will see if I can give you a small gift next time we see each other. Did you need to move that far away? Pfft!


Well, I took a well-deserved morning of sleep, as I do almost every morning. Heh… I must think, I called mother, I was trying to get a Sunday dinner at Mom’s house, but that was pfft… no dinner today! Mother was busy working! Damit!

I choose to spend my day in front of the TV and the computer. I saw some crazy programs! One was a show where they had a person they hypnotized to do crazy things, and later this guy should search in his mind how he ended those scenes he was in. I thought it was little funny and crazy, the stuff he did. It would have been more fun if he answer the questions totally wrong and was very surprised when he was watching what he actually did. He was however laughing his ass off. Well, I would probably have done the same in his shoes. I will watch the next show and see if it goes, as I want to. Otherwise, I might think it is rigged the whole thing. Especially when it is just short cut, you are allowed to see.

This ****ing show was disturbing me while I was playing poker. I was so into the TV instead of the poker table. Actually, it does not matter that much, because my cards were so cold, so cold. I did not even hit a pair. When I had something one time, I somehow was sitting out and autofold. That was not my fault. It was very very annoying. I could not do a shit! Well, shit happens in between. I was close to money, but not close enough for me to be tilted. That was good.

Later, on the evening we had out team tourney. FFS … that tourney totally sucked! LOL… Yesterday I had three of my teammates on my table and could not play as much as I wanted when I actually hit with my cards and had good hands. I was kind of praying that I would end up alone on the table today. Yes! I was alone on my table, no teammates on the table and I did not do well today. I had AQ and was on BB and my opponent had raised preflop with one blind…. Pfft…. When the blind BB is 20 chips, you just have to call a raise on 40. It is just 20 chips, too cheap to fold too, unless you do not have totally crap. I called, and of course hit Q on flop. I had put him on AX because of his very weak raise on preflop. If I hade done the same as he, I would definitely have lost. I bet flop and he re-raises big, I think he was bluffing me. I called. I bet more next hand, I was definitely playing as if I thought I had him. I was working his stack down to zero! Yeah, I manage to get his whole stack on the table in the end, and he shows his AA. Bah… I think I manage to put my hope in that pot too, because I lost the hope after that hand. I felt I would be out a few hands after that, and I was that too. It felt like a small visit in that tourney.

I took revenge in another tourney. For a change I was playing a Holdem – Omaha Hi, I ended up on the final table. Woohooo! I do hate blind stealers, because when I think they are bluffing they actually have something. The guy I was up against when we were in money was raising as normal pre flop, I had AJ and because of that, I called. I did not hit the flop or any other card for that matter. I decided to push all in, I mean, he had bluffed me before, so why not this time. I of course he had top pair on flop. Grr… I was out! Well, I am not a big fan of Omaha, because Omaha players are so crazy! I think third place was good, even if it was small money! FFS.. Those Omaha players are calling with anything. No respect at all! UGH!!!

I think was going +-0 today too!

******

Well, I finally got my money from my withdrawal the other day; I just need to transfer the money to my back account now. It was so great to see the mail from my e-wallet that the money had finally arrived. I expect them to be on my account on Wednesday. Great!

Conflict in brain

OMG,.. I was surprised over that I had not written anything since 1st of April. All my thoughts have been on a werewolf game. Ugh, I was so in to the game that I forgot about everything around… not forgot, but just ignored it for a while. Hehe… Well, when it comes to poker I have done well, I cannot complain about it. I have doubling up my bankroll these past few days that is if I am looking on what I have lost. LMAO… + - 0 would be the best. Hmm.. I am still waiting for my money, which I made a withdrawal of the other day. Obviously they are stuck in some kind of bottleneck, there is nothing more to do then to wait. It is little annoying since it normally use to take a few minutes. Grr… Patience, patience!!!

Right now, my biggest problem is my mouse arm. I think, I have some kind of inflammation, do not know. It is swollen and hurting… It is ok when I am typing, but when moving… not good! I decided to put the mouse on the other side of the keyboard. Haha… omg, it gave me a conflict in my brain. Well, I am left handed, but I am use to use the right hand for everything except crocheting and writing… and maybe some other stuff too. Mostly I use the right hand. Since I am not use to have it that day my finger had like a will of they own. Ugh… I thought I would change the options for the mouse settings in the computer to make it easier to adjust to the new changes. Maybe it takes a few days. It is not easy. It would have been better if my mouse pad would work properly on my laptop and the buttons to the touch pad. Right now, everything is confused in my brain,…

It is Saturday today and I am waiting for the team game. It is the first game of April. I hope we could win this month. Maybe I should prepare me self for the game. The game starts about an hour. Goo Divas!!!

Almost like a space ship!

Today I had to visit the jobcentre. It seems like they really want me to get a work soon. Well, I am not sure if I want a job coach… Maybe I can talk about my problems with him or her. It will be little interesting… but still, not sure if I feel comfortable with some one pushing me around. Grr...

At same time, I was at the job centre I got a phone call about a job I had been applying for last week. They wanted me to come by on Friday for an interview. I am looking forward to this interview since I worked my ass of with my CV. I really want this job; it is little of my hobby. If I get the job, I am going to teach people to play poker!

Yeah yeah…. I know, it was a bad April fool joke! It is a teaching job for coursed which has to do with computers, internet and webdesign… I have a good education for that part. I am going there on Friday. We will see then what is happening.

After the visit on the job centre, I went to Mom’s house. I needed to print out some stuff for Friday, just to show off how competent for this work. LMAO… Serious, I want this job. I am not going to cry if I do not get it. However, I will know that I did my really best to get it.

When it comes to poker, it has not been much of that today. The site has been down for updates. It is up again and it is like a space ship, many new things to play with. LMAO. Since I am a tourney donk, I signed up for a tourney to begin with. It was a hard tourney, I am glad it was only an add-on, I used. It was for sure waste of money. I was busted out almost right after the first break. When I was out of that tourney, I wend for a second one…. That one will pay out! As for now, I am on top one and final table. What place I will end up on is not set yet. It will however be some kind of money. :o)

Well, it is better I focus on the tourney instead of writing this. ;o)