Finding way

OMG! I cannot understand why I am so tired! I slept so much yesterday. I cannot continue with the sleeping, if I do, I cannot sleep tonight. Maybe I slept too much… I do not know!

Earlier, I called my mother, because I wanted her as a private driver today. I needed to go to the bank and do some errands. Unfortunately, she had other plans and same goes for tomorrow. I guess I have to take the bus or apostle horses. Grr… If I take the bus, I cannot go to the second hand store that I wanted to do too… want to look for a small table to have beside my armchair.

Well, not everything can go by plans… once again I cancelled my withdrawal from the poker site. I am going to make a try tomorrow after the new update, which is coming up. Maybe that is why it takes such time. Normally I have my money in my e-wallet after a few min, this time I did not get it at all, not even after 24 hours. It makes me wonder, what is wrong. Well, I wait until tomorrow; there is no hurry - I think. It is good to have a “decent” bankroll for my limit for a change too. I hate to have my bankroll under 3 numbers. It I make a withdrawals, I take all the winnings and leave the rest. That means I need to restart again.

The positive thing is that money falls in, in between to my bankroll. That means I do not suck totally when it comes to poker. This year, so far has been a XXX dollar plus. Last year I was, with this time minus XXX dollar…. LMAO… It was a big leak last year. Well, it has been a leak since my first day. Slowly I am getting it all back (I hope). So far, it has been a great progress to success. It is still a long way to go to success.

It is all about finding the way! I was talking to a lady on one of the communities I am a member of. I admire the game of hers; I am so fascinated of her game and that is working for her. If I choose to play like her, I am def beaten. Even if I admire her game, I do not like to have her on my table. LMAO….Especially not until my eyes are wide opened. I was saying to her that every sad-bad/beat I am experiencing give me a chance to improve my game and help my skill to be better. Even if I hate to experience sad beats, I get something out of it. At first, I get mad, but that changes later to something better. Not mad because I lost, but maybe because I did not play right or did not see what was coming up. It is so much with this game.

I will continue my playing now, as for now I am playing cash games, and I think it is so boring. That is why I wrote this blog. I had to have something on the side of the table. It seems to be a never-ending story to play cash games. Of course, the goal is to win as much as possible. Still is feels so goalless in away. It is easier to have patience for a tourney; the goal is so obvious in a tourney. There are more things happen in a tourney. First there are X people who need to be kicked out and after you must fight to get the best place you can in the tourney. As I use to do, to keep my patience on the right place, first count people and after count money. :o)

Back to the never-ending game!

Stroke Monday from the calendar!

Sunday gave team play on Wass poker. The first hour I had great hands, since we were so many from my team it did not work out, as I wanted. We like to have our team members in the tourney as long as possible. It would have been cruel of me, if I had kicked out my teammates. Grr…

The family came home from the cabin and the dog was happy about it. I had dinner at Mom’s before they drove me home with my IKEA stuff. All my things, that I bought on IKEA was working well, except for the computer desk. I need a star screwdriver do have it fixed. I made a temporary solution, just to try the desk out, it is perfect…. Just need to fix the screws!

As I thought, I blow the budget with my IKEA trip. I do not know how to manage this month. LMAO. Well, it has to be crisp bread and water until I get money next time. I have made a new withdraw from one of my poker rooms. It was stupid of me to cancel earlier. This time I choose a smaller amount to withdraw. I save some for later if needed.

I have a birthday coming up later in April; maybe I can get some money then. I might survive anyway. If it would be a big crisis, I can always visit Mom at dinnertime… or I can visit grandma or so. That is great with relatives! ;o)

When it comes to Monday, it is a waste of time and day! Just stroke it from the calendar… I woke up with a horrible headache. I think it is the dry air in my apartment, which creates my headache. It is too cold out side yet to have the window open during the night to get some better air in to the apartment. I was up a few hours; I could not stand the headache… I just went back to bed and woke up just before midnight. It might be better if I go back to bed; it would be stupid if I screw up my good day and nigh routines again. I have been a good and gone to bed in time and woke up on normal times. Well, I better go back to bed and try to get up before lunch is over. ;o)

IKEA-trip

It has been a busy day! I woke up early because my family were getting ready for their trip to our “Summer Cabin”. Me, I do not like to go there when it is winter for a couple of reason. 1. It is cold. 2. I hate going over the ice – the cabin is on an island 8 km from dry land. 3. I had the smell from scooter afterwards. I rather stay at Mom’s house and take care of their dog.

When the family had gone and I knew they were almost on the island I went to IKEA for shopping. Well, I was going to buy only a computer desk – as small one. Ok, not everything goes by plans. I bought a lamp, a few things to the bathroom and things for the kitchen. It was not too expensive… but I think the trip was blowing the budget for April! Not good, and I cancelled my last withdraw. Grr.. I guess I need to withdraw anyway. Damit!

I was so tired when I came back to the house; I just wanted to take a nap. Just when I decided to lie down in front of the TV, a friend of mine was calling me. Ok, he said, I am there in 1 minute. OMG… ffs… I could not say that he could not come this time. We do not see each other that often so I said ok.

I am glad that he came over because it was so fun. It is a long time ago I was laughing that much! My tears ran. Just before he arrived, I had to say no to the team game. It was a bit sad and I could not play the 2K freeroll either. I was inlogged and registered just in case I would have the time to play the freeroll.

Even if I missed the 2K freeroll and the team league, I had a good time. My friend and I love to play games. Since he is not so involved in Texas holdem and do not know much about that game we decided to play normal 5 draw. We do not just compare the cards we even play them. We decided to go to 21 and that means no draw after 15 points. We love to tease each other. Just to push each other to the losing edge. In this game, you cannot bluff. If you try to bluff, you will be busted. We only play for fun.

We decided that the winner would be best of three games. Ok, I lost first round! Next time I was in big lead. I stranded on 15 this for a long time… but still manage to win the second round. The third round we were equal most to the times in between I was little ahead and he took in on my and passed me and he was a little ahead of me etc.. At one moment, I had 2 pair, JJ and AA… I had won the game and we were comparing our hands. The best hand win and get points for what ever the hand is. Ok, he was showing me 10 10, and I cannot just be quiet… My big mouth said to him, “Where do you thing you are going with your pair of 10s?” I put down my pair of J on the table with a smile…. And he gave me a response and said, “Well, I was going longer than you anyway!” and he was showing of his third 10. He had three of a kind of 10s. Bah…. My big mouth and me. I just lost it! I was totally stunned! I lost my cheek and I was laughing my ass off! I thought I had the best hand and was supposed to be a little haughty against his 10s. Well, well, he can have his trips of 10s… I won the second game too! I was the winner of three rounds. He can be such cheater if he loses and because of that, I game him the opportunity to have a final short round a win or lose hand. He won that had with a straight! He can have it. I am still the best out of three rounds. Hehe… After that hand it was getting late, we decided to end the day and game.

It was a great day in the end. I think I am going to sleep very good this night, at least better than the night before.

Almost a normal life with the family

Around 12.00 AM, my mother came and picked me up after her short day on work. She was surprised over me not having my bag and computer with me. Huh,.. Spending a weekend away from my computer is not an option normally. I told her that I wanted to borrow her car later on, because I needed to go to jobcentre to get a new action document/schedule for my job applying and stuff. I needed to know when to report how my applying had been working out. So far, it has not been good, and I had misplaced my old document. I needed a new one. They had lunch at the jobcentre; I took the opportunity to eat lunch at Mom’s house before I went into the city again.

When I came up to the jobcentre, I said with a smile that I had cleaned away the very important document and that I needed a new one. I took the opportunity to ask the guy how serious I needed to be in my job applying and so on. I told him my history and stuff like that. Immediately he changed status and thing in his computer and gave me some info for a job I could apply for in the next couple of days. He also said that he will suggest me if the company is calling him for suggestion of unemployed. Woohoo, that would be great because it is one of my hobbies. I love to work with computers also teach. This work was a kind of teaching work… I really hope I can get it. That was really great! Well, unfortunately I had already made my application yesterday for this work. Hehe… I am a good girl!

After my visit on the jobcentre, I went home to my place and left the action document and the other info at home. I packed my bag and my computer and went home to mother’s house. I stopped by the store on the way, to shop some snacks and stuff.

The whole family were watching TV when I came back after my errands. I unpacked my laptop and sat down at the couch with the rest of the family. While we were watching TV, I was hitting for 2 sngs… what a joke! I had hardly been watching the cards before I was out. First I read AK on my opponent and I had 9 9 on my hand, while she were pushing, I were calling and on river she checked and I pushed all in… Great! She had 4 of a kind of sevens. Doh!!! In next sng I had 10 10, I raised… I forgot one important thing – it was a bounty with 2-dollar buy in. I raised a little pre flop and every one was folding except for one player. Ok. I could probably hit straight with my hand after flop, because of that I was pushing… yeah yeah. I was out, and my opponent had 89! Great! He/she hit house on river! Hrmph!

I gave up poker for the day! I mean it is hard to play focus while you are sitting in the middle of the living room with the whole family of mine. Maybe it was a good decision. After a while, my mobile phone was screaming. An old friend of mine called me to inform me about him being in the city for the weekend. Of course, I invited him over…

Times goes fast when you have fun… when it had gone 3 hours and the dinnertime was almost past. I was getting to wonder if my friend had fallen asleep at his Mom’s house. Just at that moment, he called and said that, he was on his way over.

He were here for a few hours, we had lots of fun, talking about old times and stuff. We half made some plans for tomorrow. Maybe it will be an IKEA trip… Well, I have to go to IKEA!

It was a nice day with family and friend….
Lovely weather too!

Patience killed by headache

This morning, when I woke up I had a little headache. I was hoping it would go away after a while. Well, I was not that lucky! Fresh air use to do fine for headache, I went for a little walk, I went to the nearest little store around here. I bought a soda and went home again. When I came home, the headache was getting worse. I did not know what to do, I took some painkillers and it seems like my headache was laughing at the painkillers. It uses to take some time before the killers are doing their work.

I registered for a tourney and I was doing great, I had a good position almost the whole tourney. Most of the time I was in top 5, I was happy. Towards the end, when there were between 15-20 players left I was still going strong. The blinds were not too big; I could have managed to the final table. I am pretty sure about it. The biggest problem was that I could not stand my headache, it was killing my patience and because of that I killed me self on the table. When I was finally out with A8 I went to bed. I was trying to get some sleep. Maybe I slept or maybe I was awake, I do not know! It felt like I had not slept at all when I was getting back to life after a few hours. The headache was still there and still is, but I can live with it.

I made me some dinner and called Mom about my bathing suit. She said that she could probably help me to modify it. She is picking me up tomorrow. I am going to spend the weekend at their house. I guess it is better I am getting to bed early tonight.

Well, first I am going to play a Pokerspace tourney. I hope my patience will work better this time. Grr…

Top 5, no win.

I have just finished the Pokerspace tourney on Carbon. There were only 29 players in the game. I do not know, but this game was so weird. It was like I had the same stack all the way through the tourney, until I was busted out. Every time, when I really had something good in my hand, every one was folding. I could not pick up any decent pot. So weird, it was like every one knew that I was holding the best hand. If I was trying to bluff, always someone had something. It was as if everything was standing still.

I ended up in top five, I knew I had the best hand pre-flop and the other guy, with the bigger stack crushed me already on the flop. He flopped flush… grr… I did not expect to win. It would have been fun to get money anyway. I have playing against those players before and every one of them, almost everyone anyway after crazy. Even if they say something else, they are crazy in my opinion.

The tourney is over and no money for me! :o( I think top 5 could have got something, that would given me the buy in back. I do not know why top 5 was not paid. It uses to be top 5 in every other tourney.

I guess it is better for me to sleep now!
Maybe I can dream about this big win! :oD

Not much poker but a bathing suit

It has not been much of poker today! I registered for a tourney earlier and it had a good start. After 30 min maybe, I was out brutally. I flopped straight, there were some people who were betting, and raising, I figured that some of them has something. I pushed all in to get chips for it. Crap, I was beaten by a bigger straight and even this guy flopped straight. Doh!! I was out! I gave up and went to bed to make history of my headache.

When I woke up from my nap, my headache was still there. Crap! Well, it was not much to do about that! I had made some plans with my mother, I was going to have dinner at their house and after the dinner, Mom had to come with me to the store. My money had arrived today and I needed to shop some food and stuff. Since I do not have a car, she needed to follow me. I could not borrow her car. I could, but then I have to go back with car. That was not an option. She had to follow. The shopping bags were so heavy; I could not carry them home from the store. Well, at least I have food for a while!

Earlier today, I made a withdrawal from one of my poker accounts. I did not know when I was supposed to get money (it was before I notice I already had money on my bank account). I made a withdrawal just in case. At the time when I was at the store, I picked up a package that I had ordered for a few weeks ago. I had ordered a bathing suit! Mom said why you bought the bathing suit. You cannot use it, I guess you are out of money soon and cannot afford to buy in for the indoor swimming pool. Hrmph!!! I told her I was lucky and had won some money on poker and had just made a withdrawal. Money would not be a problem this time. LMAO….

When I came home, I hurry to open the package with the bathing suit, just to see how it looked like. I had forgotten which one I had ordered. I held it up in front of my body! OMG!!! There was a problem! Normally it uses to be a problem about having a too big body and to small clothes. This time it was the other way around. The bathing suit was two sizes too big! Now I do not know what to do! Shall I try to modify it and risk having it looking weird or shall I try to send it back to have a new one. The problem is that I have opened it already, and I am not sure if I can to trade it for a smaller one. I am a bit disappointed! I was checking the sizes before I ordered the bathing suit.

I was hoping to start with the swimming tomorrow, now when I am living so close to the indoor swimming pools. It is good to exercise, especially when you sit for hours in front of the computer. It makes me think clearer too… and that is good for my poker playing.

I have a Pokerspace tourney coming up soon on carbon. I need to get ready for it… collect my thought and so on. Well, it is still one more hour too go before it starts.

Little accident!

Oops! Did not think about that.. but yesterdays post is posted with today's date! LMAO...

I have a little to learn about this blog tool, before I can master it for real! Ugh!!


Doh, I got some headache now. Need to take care of it!

Tough day and little win!

It has been a tough day today; I have not slept that good during the night because I had to sleep with a stopped-up nose. That sucks! I had to have a stopped-up nose. Every time that happens, I get some kind of panic. I use to have some kind of medicine at home, but I did not have any this time. I just had to be patience and wait to the morning. Almost the first thing I did when I woke up was to take the bus into the city and shop medicine.

This day has been so slow and I was out of energy. Well, that did not keep me from playing some poker. I was playing a few sngs, since they were bounty there were no meaning to try to bluff either. On the table sat a headhunter who called everything with any two cards. It was killing the fun; I was trying to end up in money with patience instead. I did not receive any playable cards at all. I registered for at tourney later on where I ended up in money and had my buy in back. That was great, but I was not that happy with the game. It started out just find, but later I lost half my stack. I got the cards, but there were always someone with a little better hand. Well, shit happens…

I have spent the evening in front of the TV as usual, and I was chatting with a friend of mine. I was surprised over him asking me about a friend of mine, that I have on my msn and he does not. He was looking on my profile. I was only surprised. I told him that this friend was living in another country and was my teammate on Wass online. That we were on the same team and we use to play against other teams. I explained about our team games and that we are about 10 ladies who are playing on the same team. He wanted of course join the team; I had to tell him that he is not a lady and definitely not a Diva. :op

It was fun talking with him, I miss him… we had so much fun when we were children. He asked if I was still playing poker… I told him of course. While I was chatting with him, I was playing a sng satellite for a bigger tourney. I do not like talking with people that much when I am heads up, I need to focus. The positive thing it all my poker friends understand it when you mention it. It is a bit hectically when you are heads up online. I could not tell him to be quiet. We are not talking everyday … I continue chatting with my friend. Between every letter or word the table popped up, I thought I was going crazy. Well, it was paying out so I am happy with it anyway. I took the first place and got the coupon for this bigger tourney. I hope I can play it this upcoming weekend. It would be great.

In the end, it was a great day even if it was tough.

Springtime

Lovely, it is wonderful weather outside. The sun is shining and it is screaming springtime… Still we have lots of snow everywhere, but you can see little of the asphalt anyway. I can hardly wait until all the snow is gone, at least from the roads. I want to be able to take a ride on the bike and be able to take walks without being afraid of falling cause of the slippery ice. It could be less slushy; it is not fun to get wet feet when walking. Soon I hope, wish and I guess it will be nice when I have my birthday within a month. (Of course my picture is taken on the on the back side of my house, no sun that this time 2 AM).

The sun is up longer and longer each day and that is great! I hate when it is dark outside. Ok, only time it has its beauty is drying Christmas time when it is Advent candlesticks and starts in the windows and lights in and on trees, roofs and walls. Now we are going towards summer… screw Christmas for now. I feel my energy is better for every day, even if it is on low power. I do not know really how to charge the batteries. My batteries were running out when I was living with my ex. Not sure what to call him yet, we are not done yet, since I moved to my own apartment in December.

Yeah yeah… To quote grandma’s latest partner: “Life is like in a bag!” I am not sure I know what he meant by that. It sounded fun when he said it. I am just glad grandma listened to her common sense and left him, before they were getting serious. He did not really fit in with our family and relatives. Hehe…

In a moment or so I am going to visit my Mom, I was hoping to get some dinner there. I just hope I can be home in time to my poker evening. I have some tourneys I want to play later. I guess there will be no problem with the time. The sad thing is that I have not my car here. At same time, I can manage anyway and it is good with a walk or two in between. It is good for the health.

Now, it is time to take the Apostle horses and walk to mothers work. It is just a few km and it will not kill me – I hope! :o)

First blog!

Welcome to my first blog at this site!

Well, I will try to have it updated at least a few days a week if not everyday. We will see about that!

I think most of this blog will be about poker and my experience / insight / moods etc. Maybe it is better to point this out directly; I am definitely not a pro when it comes to poker. I have a lot to learn. I do my very be improve my skill from time to time, since it is easy to be stuck in some kind of treadmill. Sometimes it is good to step away and think about the game, maybe read some magazine or a book… it can be good to watch others, how they play etc. I read somewhere that you should study other game for as long as you play. If you play 4 hours, you should study 4 hours too. Well, that was what I read; I do not know where I read it… Do not take it for a fact; I cannot bring up the source.

Sometimes there will be some kind of language conflict. I write directly from Swedish to English. Yeah! I know; it is long way from perfect English with perfect grammar and spelling. Sometimes the expression fails big. It can be fun in between. *blush*

I guess there will be some stories from the life too. Ugh! Poker and life can go hand in hand sometimes or just be a big conflict. As for now, I am between job and studies… I am almost done with my teacher studies; I have not done my exam report yet. I cannot get a job in the school yet. I need to have another job until I get my thumb out of my ass and make this exam report. On the other hand, I am not sure I want to be a teacher… yes, I want to teach, but not sure if I want to work with kids. You know, there is an expression: “Kids of today….” They scare me! LMAO… Maybe that is why I have not done that stupid report yet. Stupid and stupid! Poker is a big part of it too, I guess. At least it was from the beginning! Everything is fun when it is new. Poker was fun for me too in the beginning of my poker career. Well, there are other things in life too, which throws spanners in the works.

In the end, when it comes around everything is about decisions. Ugh!!!

This is it for this time!